i'm funny when i'm high. at least, everyone seems to think so. i talked to my brother for 1/2 an hour today, i haven't heard him laugh like that in ages. and i was talking to tcubed, and she was laughing at me too. maybe laughing AT me is different than me being funny.
so i take vicodin every 4 hours to keep my stomach and back from exploding. vicodin makes me weird. it makes me itchy, too. but i seem to have a knack for using big words and making up silly songs when under the influence.
and have i mentioned my obsession with food?
i'm told that millions of american women suffer through this food obsession when they're dieting. depriving themselves of sustenance in hopes of losing that extra pound or two.
i'm being forced by my gallstones to give up food, but if i had my way i'd be eating anything and everything my mind can dream up. and i do mean dream. i'm dreaming about food. i close my eyes and i have visions of chips and salsa, grilled chicken over salad greens, spaghetti with meat sauce and garlic bread. cold tofu with green onions and soy sauce. i want food so badly i can smell it.
why do people go through this voluntarily?
i was driving home from my consultation with my surgeon, thinking about stopping at every taco stand and fast food place on the 9 mile drive. knowing full well that i couldn't eat any of it, yet still blinded by the thoughts of just one bite...
and my surgeon says it may be two weeks before i can be scheduled for my surgery. i think i'll have myself committed before then.
Posted by yoshi at October 24, 2003 07:28 PM | TrackBackI am pissed off that it takes the fucking HMO so fucking long to schedule a fucking surgery for you. Although you *are* quite funny while you are high, I liked it better when you weren't doubled over in pain 24 hours a day.
Posted by: :: jozjozjoz :: at October 24, 2003 07:52 PMone of my good friends just had hers done and she's recovering nicely. :) I think it's well worth getting it done!
Posted by: eve at October 24, 2003 09:07 PMi have the BEST dreams when i'm on vicoden! enjoy it while you can -- and the best of luck to you with your surgery.
Posted by: P at October 24, 2003 11:21 PMHang in there, Yoshi. That being said, I've had gall bladder "attacks" and hated the hours of pain, so I know it's not easy for you. Also, Vicodin will really knock you out, so be careful not to take too much too often.
And I agree with ::jozjozjoz:: HMO's should be outlawed, and their executives tortured mercilessly for the public to see. No one should have to wait more than a day or two to receive surgical services. You should threaten to sue them for endangering your life, and see how quickly they respond.
Posted by: keith at October 25, 2003 08:35 AMPoor Yosh :(...Be glad you can take Vicodin for pain, i found out the hard way that I'm allergic to morphine (so no morphine for me!)...but as Keith said, be careful with it. I know that its gotta be hard...anytime I get myself to stop eating something, I tend to crave it even more. After its all over (though HMO's are stupid)...you'll feel so much better. *hugs* to you and Joz.
Posted by: Meeta at October 25, 2003 12:01 PMAww, heck. At least you are on Vicodin. That should make the time fly by. Oh, and Vicodin makes me itch too, along with morphine. I asked a doctore why once but I have no idea what they said. I was a little doped up.
Posted by: Hunter at October 25, 2003 11:22 PMAll sentences that seem true should be questioned.
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